beyond textbook stuff

One of the most difficult emotions that I’ve ever had to deal with is that of betrayal and rejection.  It is so incapacitating to know that you are not that someone anymore.   The place that you used to fill in someone’s life is now filled by something else.

After everything, I have no harsh words. Hurt and extreme sadness is all I feel. You will never know why someone chooses the actions they do or why they no longer wish to continue their journey with you at their side.  You can’t change those events no matter how bad you want to. My only wish is to be able to wash it all away. Every memory and experience shared so the daily reminders are not so difficult to survive. I wish to not feel so invested in a dream that will never come true. Sometimes, even if you believe in something with every piece of yourself, you still end up empty in the end.